FAQ

i've avoided this topic like the plague for the last few months, but everyone we run into has asked us about the kids we were trying to adopt through foster care. i'm finally in a place where i can talk about it without feeling sick and depressed.

for almost two years josh and i were working with an agency, doing everything they asked of us...the TB testing on us and the kids, FBI prints, and the list goes on and on. all of that has to be done before your homestudy can begin. every time we would talk to the agency, our adoption coordinator would say she hadn't received some results, or that we needed to do things again, etc. after a very long year of jumping through hoops, we were told that we needed to come back in the fall. our homestudy would not happen. they had for the last three months that we were with them, implied that we wanted to adopt simply to receive monthly subsidies from the government. even after turning in the dimensions and blueprint of our home, which is more than large enough to pass their requirements, they repeatedly asked us if we knew that adopting three children required a certain amount of space. they were grasping at straws to give us the answer we desperately did not want to hear. there was no reason that we shouldn't have been able to adopt. NONE. the only thing we can figure is that our age was not on our side. at our first ever visit with the agency, they had pushed older children adoption on us. we changed our preference from toddler-7years to 7years+. with all of that said, i have lost faith in our country's duty to find these children healthy homes. i fell into depression, with such a deep feeling of loss that i tried to avoid talking about it with anyone, even josh. the only one i took this to was God. i prayed that He would give me peace and contentment. i told him i was sure He had other plans for us. one night josh came to me with the story of Abraham and Isaac. he reminded me that God leads you through things sometimes to measure your faith. to see how much He matters to you. and if the experience broke my heart into pieces, it still taught me that HE was ALL i need. from the first time we decided to adopt through foster care, to telling our friends and family about the sibling group, to preparing our hearts for this whole new life we would have, at any cost, it was all through FAITH. faith that i really never knew i had.

when God closes a door, it's because He has a better one to open for you. one of the reasons that we want to move to Corpus Christi, is that we will have half the mortgage note we have here. it is a smaller community than where we are, there are tons of ways for our kids can see and experience God's creations. and since we will have smaller bills, we will have an opportunity to save our pennies and adopt through Reece's Rainbow.
that will be a whole 'nother post. but in the meantime, we have become prayer warriors for a precious little baby boy named Keegan! i highly suggest taking a chunk of time out of your day to peruse through their site, the children and ministry are amazing. if you would like, you can donate to Keegan's adoption fund through his page by clicking on his name above.

gotta get busy packing more of this house up!

--Lindsey